This is going to sound ridiculous......but I wish that I could trademark Adelyn's name. That no one else could use it. It's too special, sacred to me, to hear another baby named it.
Yet, this week I have heard it 3 or 4 times.
My cousin posted a photo on Facebook of her daughter holding a very tiny baby girl. It didn't crush me to see a tiny baby girl.....until she told me her name was Adelyn.
I don't know why she even told me that, but probably because we were discussing the first birthday party of another cousin's daughter that we were invited to. I don't want to go, because I know there is going to be a little girl named Adelyn there. She was at the baptism for the birthday girl a few months ago, and no one warned me until we were on our way. I know they don't know how much that would have affected me to talk to someone and hear them say their tiny baby is named Adelyn, but still. Unexpected things are the worst, at least if I am prepared I can harden myself prior to the situation.
Then there is the girl I think is named Adelyn and looks to be the exact age as my Adelyn would be. I think I may have written about her before, but when I took Sierra to her Summer Enrichment last week, she was there again. I swear for the 2nd time I thought I heard her mom yell "Adelyn!" at her. The first time was when I took Sierra for her Kindergarten screening. My heart raced and I felt like I was out of my body after that time. At least this time I was sorta prepared, but I couldn't help but stare at her.......
Then tonight, first thing on my Facebook was an old acquaintance saying they were so happy to meet the new baby girl Adalyn Jane.
I really wish her name wasn't becoming so trendy. I remember worrying about that when we chose it - I like different names. It sucks when you take all this time to pick a unique name and then it ends up becoming really popular a few years later. It sucks even more when the baby you chose the name for dies. I know it's wrong, but every time I hear another baby/girl named Adelyn, it puts me in a bad mood and I have a pity party. Sometimes I just can't help it, but I don't like feeling that way. I wonder why their Adelyn got to live and mine didn't?
I miss her tonight.
1 week ago