Day 21. Altar/Shrine/Sacred Space - I have two places in my house for her. The first is a shelf on our bookcases in our family room, where we spend most of our time:
There is a collage made by my friend Erin of Hope Mommies, even though I missed the first retreat. There is a picture of Sierra and Adelyn bear wearing their matching shirts, taken right before Adelyn's first birthday - I kind of feel like I need to update it with a picture that has Coen in it too, yet I can't bear to take that one down. Also is the Willow Tree figure, she is holding a balloon that says "hope" - very perfect for Adelyn. The tag it comes with says "hope lifts us up." Love it! Then there is her candle I made her and a butterfly on a rock that says hope.
Day 22. Place of Care/Birth - For the longest time, just seeing the logo for St. Clair Hospital would make my heart pound and my palms sweat.
Room 5801 was where Adelyn was born. I was so nervous about being near that room when I had Coen, thankfully they had me as far away from it as possible. I did see it, when I was walking around waiting to leave. My heart skipped a beat, I wanted to look closer because no one was in it, but I couldn't. My friend who lost her baby at the same hospital two weeks after me (the one I just wrote about that made the candle for me) - she was also in this room. Someday I wish we could purchase a plaque to hang in that room, in memory of our babies. But I wonder if that would be weird to put in a happy place?
I have no clue how I managed to have another baby at that same hospital, I can honestly say Dr. P, my ob, is the only reason! I wish I had a photo of her after she delivered Coen, I guess I was too busy soaking him in. St. Clair Hospital, such a bittersweet place for me.
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