She's Got a Way

It used to be that every song on the radio I could somehow relate back to Adelyn. Even songs that are about a man loving a woman - they would speak to me about losing Adelyn. Lately, it seems like every song is reminding me of Sierra. Two songs I hear on the radio all the time:

Grenade by Bruno Mars - quite obviously about a man who would do anything for a woman, but she won't do the same. However, these lyrics jump out at me every single time:

I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby

I remember in my younger years thinking, what crazy person would really die for someone else? And now I totally understand. The part that I like best is about "I would go through all this pain." Because I have thought about how, maybe me going through the pain of losing Adelyn will save Sierra from going through this. Maybe I can do it so she doesn't have to. If that's the case, then I'm ok with it.

Another song always on the radio these days is "Perfect" by Pink. And I am just now realizing that the F word is in this song!! But, the rest of the lyrics in the chorus remind me of Sierra:

Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're perfect to me

Often times I get teary eyed thinking about how really perfect she is to me.

But, a song hasn't touched me quite the way this next one did since I heard "Just the Way You Are" by Bruno Mars, way back when I was nearing the end of my pregnancy with Adelyn. That song is referred to as "Sierra's Song" in our family. But...as I was driving home from picking Sierra up yesterday, "She's Got a Way" by Billy Joel came on. I was almost frozen by it, but of course I was driving so I had to keep concentrating. What an amazing song, obviously written by a man about a woman he loves, but I can really relate so much of it to a mother's love for her daughter.

She's got a way about her
I don't know what it is
But I know that I can't live without her
She's got a way of pleasin'
I don't know why it is
But there doesn't have to be a reason anywhere

She's got a smile that heals me
I don't know what it is
But I have to laugh when she reveals me
She's got a way of talkin'
I don't know why it is
But it lifts me up when we are walkin' anywhere

She comes to me when I'm feelin' down
Inspires me without a sound
She touches me and I get turned around
She's got a way of showin'
How I make her feel
And I find the strength to keep on goin'
She's got a light around her
And everywhere she goes a million
Dreams of love surround her everywhere

She comes to me when I'm feelin' down
Inspires me without a sound
She touches me, I get turned around oh oh oh

She's got a smile that heals me
I don't know why it is
But I have to laugh when she reveals me
She's got a way about her
I don't know what it is
But I know that I can't live without her any way