Rainbow Baby

And here is the LONG overdue post.

Our rainbow baby is expected to make his/hear entrance into this world on October 18th. Yes, I know I am already 6 months pregnant and I am JUST writing about this. The truth is, I struggled, a LOT with it. I still do. And I wanted to make sure that no one found out about this news via my blog. I wanted to post after our ultrasound, that said baby is looking perfect and so is everything else. But then there always seemed to be something else I wanted to write about, needed to vent about, and I wouldn't be in the mood to share happy news. Today it got to the point where I realize that I NEED to blog about all these feelings and emotions that come along with being pregnant again. The majority of these are because of Adelyn. More to come on that.

But, for those who don't know what the term "rainbow baby" means, I borrowed this from a post on BabyCenter. I think it descrbies it perfectly:
"Rainbow Baby" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.

And here are some pictures of Sierra sporting the many rainbow shirts I seemed to have found lately:

And, for those of you who are friends with me on Facebook, please do not post on my wall about it. You can send me private messages, but I am just not wanting to share this journey with everyone. There are many friends who I only talk to on Facebook, who live out of town. When Adelyn died, I had to make an announcement on there telling everyone to stop all the questions about how things went, etc. Even though I truly believe this baby will be born screaming, I just can't bear to take the chance of having to do that again. Thanks!